Emo

Back in times, I usually thought that when I reach adolescent i will know what to do with a given scenario. And now i realise i was innocent and stupid.

Miracle, all the while I had believe in you so much and now i dun feel like trusting you again. I don't know what happen but u seems to be away from me when i need you. Where are you? I keep tellin myself to have a little faith in you but you always fails me. You are the one, who makes my cheeks go wet that i din even realise that I'm crying.
Where are you, when i need you?? where have u gone all this while??

I don't like the feeling that i don't have control over my life. Everything seems goin out of my way and my life. I like to have charge over my life. I want my life to be control by me but not others. I still like havin family and friends to guide me through the road that fill with obstacles but please don't carry me over the road. At least let me try to walk on my own feet. Let me understand what is the defination of independent.

I feel trapped in everything and yet no one is there to save me. What am I goin to do?? Am i goin to sit down and wait for my luck to return to me like god says?? When is the sun goin to shine on me again??

Afterall, this is the main reason why am i blogging. This is the only place for me to release my tension, my anger when there is no one to hear me out or even understand what am i facing in my life.